My head is running wild recently. Gosh, SPM tense ? That's one of it. But him ? He's not the reason. I love him ... But sometimes I act like an idiot , keeping him hurt. Stupid me. I feel like letting him go but I know that would be the dumbest thing ever. I let someone went away few years back even he was a saint towards me. I was selfish, never thought of his feeling. Never kept my promises with him. Who? Someone. My ex.

This time I'm not going to do that once more. NO. Not again.

You are more than a boyfriend to me. You're my best friend. My best listener. You keep on being by my side even though I'm acting like a dumbass towards you. Your patience......... That's what makes me feel guilty. Too patience. And that the thing that makes my love grows stronger. Am I deserving you babe? I feel like there should be a girl that much better than me. But. I can't simply let you go unless it's your own choice. I'll be fine. Emm, fine? NO. Liar , i would not be fine. Losing you? I hope that'll never happen. I love you.