His tweets. What's that mean? Taking care of his own feeling? Think positive? He needed someone to talk to? Asking someone to cheer him up?
His conversation with nash. He said that maybe this night, the time is finally over. What does it all mean actually?
I don't know. I'm afraid to know. Is he leaving? Is he planning to get over everything that we used to have together?
I know I could never be perfect. Nobody's perfect. I just wish he knows that I always try the best of me - just for him.
For the sake of our relationship. I tried. I'm trying. I will keep on trying. I have no idea when I'll stop trying. I just try - cause I think I love him more than a friend. More than any other guys that I've been closed to.
However ....... I'm a girl .. I have my own fucking breaking point too. I wish I could just ignore everything. But I can't - and it's slowly burning myself. Sorry. My attitude annoyed you. I can't be the girl of your dream. I can't be a good girlfriend.
But just to be honest, I wasn't the old me. I know I could never turn back time and undo all my wrongs. Thus, I'm trying my best to be better. Day by day.
If you think that changing one self is easy, please .. Change your thought. It's hard - but not impossible. It takes time. It needs patience and perseverance. I do believe that this magical effect will find me someday. I'll keep on this waiting. It'll be worth it. God-will. :')