Black keys between the whites in the piano. Rolling wheel. Life.
It's related to each other. Life ain't always happy , ain't always let you win. Life has its up and down. Sometimes we feel like it never fair enough for us. Well, that's what I feel sometimes. God has written the best story for you , for us , for every creatures HE has created. But we are humans. Feelings are uncontrollable. We cant control to feel happy. We can't control to feel satisfied. We can't control to feel loved. We can't even control to feel broken. However we can do something to overcome feelings. First thing to do, back to your Creator. :')
Yes, I ain't pious. I made mistakes. I hurt people. I was wrong in so many things. But one thing I know is I'm trying to go back to the path that I'm supposed to be. Being a bad girl isn't difficult. But being good is. Prove it? Okay, you steal a book from the bookstore, people will judge you and say bad things bout you, then directly you'll be seen as a bad person. Even it is just a book. Next story, you are taking care of your younger sister while your parents are working on the weekdays. Bring your little sister wherever you go. Treat her right. Play the stupid childish games even though you are fucking not interested with that. Bringing her to the place she wanna go just to make her happy. Spending your money on her cause you don't want to see her frowning face. Then one day you go out without bringing her. Your parents will scold you like hell as if you never care of your sister. Get the point? Happened to me.
Being the eldest. Seeing from the positive side, there'e a lot of advantages. Seeing from the negative side, oh you can see that it just almost equal to. Half half. I don't really know how to spell it out.. No, I'm not complaining... But , hmm ... I'm tired. Insecure. Broken. Torn apart. Okay stop, I don't wanna make everyone sobbing here. So, bye !